Losing it all

There has been a long gap since my last blog.  The reason is simple.  I am ill again, have been readmitted to a psychiatric hospital, my career and whole family life is in jeopardy because of something someone has said about me and therefore, in simple terms, life as I knew it has gone.

To lose one's health is one thing, to lose family, job, housing and future as well is beyond crushing.  Right now I have my dogs for company - that is it.

Will this ever improve?  Right now I think it will only get worse and for complicated reasons I cannot ask for more support.

I hope that if anyone reads this they will spare a thought and a prayer for me - I thought my life was gradually improving.  In fact it could not have gone more profoundly in the opposite direction.