The Dark Night of the Soul

It's three weeks since my last blog when I asked if there was a light at the end of the tunnel.  I still feel the peace I seek is elusive, in fact more elusive than ever.  As those of you following this blog know, my employers have insisted I move in July.  The move is proving to introduce so many layers to my anxiety I am finding it unbearable.

My wife will have to leave her job and as a civil servant there is little prosepct of anything new for a while.  She hates her job though, so on a personal level this may be positive and she may receive a small lump sum for leaving early.

We all have to pay a bit more tax and National Insurance from April.  It looks like the new military accommodation we have been allocated is a lot smaller than we live in now and quite a lot more money.

Add to this the concern over military pensions introduced by the Hutton Report (although it will not be until 2015 at earliest and for the military likely not even then producing minimal impact) and it feels as though it is, simply put, one thing after another.

This is not a whinge it's just the way I feel and I feel rough.  I do Moodscope everyday now - see the link on the right.  I only scored 8% today.

So this is a simple update on how I am feeling, the uncertainty I am encountering and an honest appraisal that I feel utterly overwhelmed.

Sorry but this is just the way it is.  As an understanding friend of mine put it, it is a 'dark night of the soul'.  It feels as though he is right.